I admit this is one story lingering on in my head, and I am
finally bringing myself to write it. Every once in awhile I think about how things turned out, but it is becoming less emotional for me as time goes on.
For those who know, I had an emergency C-section with
Johnathan. He was coming face presentation, and I could not push him out. You
can read more about his story here: http://brittstale.blogspot.com/2015/06/one-heck-of-birth-story.html
It was always in the plans since having Johnathan I
would do a VBAC with our next child. We found a great team of Midwives who
deliver at the St Luke’s Baptist Hospital in San Antonio. I really liked a few
of them the best because they truly had my best interest at heart and were
completely supportive throughout my entire pregnancy.
Well, the clock was ticking and our little baby would be
coming soon. Everything about my cervix and the baby’s position was ready to
go. All I needed to really do was actually start some contractions. My due date
was past and still no baby. I went in for an appointment at 40 ½ weeks.
Luckily, I met with Lauren, who was my favorite midwife. She kept telling me how great a VBAC candidate I was and even pushed it a
bit, so I could wait to have a scheduled C-section for one more week. I felt at
peace with that and felt my body would go into labor on its own before then.
People/friends
have asked me about being induced in my circumstance. This is one of the
opinions and feelings I am going to try and not get into right now. However,
with that on the mind, Lauren said to go ahead and bring our hospital bag to
our next appointment in a couple days.
Those next couple days were discouraging. I am not going to
even get into all the things I did to try and bring on labor. haha. Let’s just say I believe no matter what you do and all those silly list, there is no way
you can induce your own labor.
Thursday morning came, and we loaded our hospital bag into
the car and dropped Johnathan off at Grandma and Grandpa’s house (my parents). That
morning I started to feel some very mild contractions as well. We got to my
appointment and had a sonogram and a non-stress test. Everything was great,
except that baby’s amniotic fluid had dropped to a 2 and they prefer it to be
at a minimum of 5. I will try and be positive here, but I cannot guarantee
that. My least favorite midwife met with us and with no further discussion or
talk, it was decided for me that I was going to be having a C-section that day.
At this moment I wished I could talk to Lauren, the midwife I seemed to click
with the best. We walked out of the office and into the hospital to get things
set up for my C-section. My contractions are also increasing. I admit, I spent
a good portion of my morning with tears in my eyes and the feeling that nobody
even cares what I think or what I feel we should do.
I sat in a hospital bed with monitors on me for five hours
wishing they would just let me see where these contractions would lead. Part of
me wishes I could sit here and write with no regrets or wishes of what we
should have done. I wish we did not feel pressured or pushed at that moment and
that we asked more questions before to see if it was absolutely necessary. We
can’t go back and change it, so I am trying to move on. I will admit it is a
bit hard to see a lot of friends having babies right now and not get a little
jealous of their vaginal deliveries.
A little after 3:00 p.m. they took us to the O.R. to prep
for the C-Section. Glenn waited outside the room while they put the spinal
block in me and a few other preps. Glenn came in, and though this was not our
ideal birth experience, we were anxious to meet our little girl. The experience
was different than when we had Johnathan. They dropped the curtain as soon as
they pulled Colette out, and I got to see her. When Johnathan was born, I
barely got to see him before they took him to check his oxygen, and I did not
see him for two hours. Colette came out healthy and well. They gave her to me
to hold a few minutes later. I will say that was the best part. I never got
that with Johnathan until he was two hours old. It was so fun and memorable to
hold her during her first moments outside the womb.
Once I was stitched back up, we were taken to recovery and
stayed there for about four hours. I guess it was a busy baby day at the
hospital and so rooms were not readily available. We got to bond and spend time
with Colette. We called my mom, so we could talk to Johnathan before he went to
bed. He was excited to meet his baby sister.
The next day, my parents brought Johnathan to the hospital.
He was most concerned that Colette did not have any socks or shoes on. Other
than that, he did not want to hold her. He did go over to her every once in a
while to pat her head and look at her toes
Now two weeks later, we are doing really well.
Johnathan still will not hold Colette, but he loves telling people about the
baby and sitting next to her.
Welcome to the world little Colette.
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