I was born. . .

I was born in Illinois. I have wonderful parents who raised me in The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints and allowed me to gain my own testimony of the restored gospel. I have wonderful siblings who set examples for me and helped me make my decision of serving a mission. I decided when I was 10 years old I would serve a mission for the Lord. That decision never left my desires. I received my patriarchal blessing when I was 15 years old. I knew from that blessing my desires of serving as a full-time missionary at the age of 21 was right on.

I continued enriching myself in the teachings of the Lord and found myself with many missionary opportunities in Elementary, Middle, and High School. I have passed out pass-along cards like candy, I have gifted The Book of Mormon to friends.

On July 11, 2010 I found out I would be serving an 18-month mission for the Lord in Germany-Berlin. I did not care where I went; I knew where ever the Lord sends me that is where I am needed. I loved the people of Germany before I even knew them. I continue to love all children of God and knowing that they have a great potential in the eyes of the Lord.

I left for my mission October 27, 2010 and experienced the best 18-months for my life. I could go on and on about my mission.

However, why am I writing this post?

I have felt a great desire and need to. This time of my life is not an easy one. Some days I sit here thinking about where I am headed and what I am even doing just to catch a tear or two gracing the smoothness of my cheek.

I had plans and dreams of where I am headed in this life. My plans have always included ditching Rexburg after I graduate. Well, I graduate this Friday. No plans of leaving for a couple more years. Glenn still has to finish his degree. Now I am left to wonder where I am headed and what plans the Lord has in store for me.

Up to this point, I have always known exactly what I am going to do. Go on a mission, get a degree in English, and get married. Now what? This last week, Glenn and I went to Grad Night with President Clark (president of the university). He spoke to us graduates, and some of his words really spoke to me.

He said, "Heavenly Father has a plan for you, and he will educate you on where you need to go. He will educate your desires to match his."
These words really spoke to me.

I got thinking about my blessing and the promises and things the Lord has in store for me. Some I still don't see how they will ever happen, but I trust the Lord.

One thing though, since missionary work is on my mind, is the promise that I will see my children serve missions. How grateful I am for that. I am even more grateful that I have served a mission myself. I know the importance of it more so then if I did not serve. I feel more prepared to raise my children to have the same desire I did. To serve the Lord.

I know Heavenly Father has a plan for me. I just don't know what that is yet. Why am in Rexburg, besides Glenn being here, is a mystery for me. I know the Lord never has let me down, and I won't ever let the Lord down.