Going Natural

If you have been pregnant and/or are pregnant, chances are I can not relate to you. Why? Well, I never really experienced the whole morning sickness thing people talk about and for being a little over 25 weeks pregnant, I am actually pretty small. Every girl I know that is pregnant right now, besides those due in April, are not due until after me, yet they are a lot bigger and showing a lot more than I. I also do not have any cravings that all my other pregnant friends talk about having. It's not that I don't want to relate, but my pregnancy is just different than all my friends who are pregnant at the moment. No wonder it took me a whole trimester to be convinced I was actually pregnant.

I feel just fine. I feel like I am no different than before. The only thing I do feel is more tired. In fact, there are more days if you ask me if I am pregnant, I would say no. I don't feel it. At least, what everybody else is feeling. I wake up every morning and go cycling. I would also go play soccer (my ultimate love), but nobody will let me. Glenn and I did make a deal that I can go back and play soccer in the Fall!

But, out of all the pregnancy shenanigans and questions people ask me, the question that gets on my nerve the most is if this pregnancy was planned. That is a bit personal buddy, don't ya think? I have been asked that question more than anything else since announcing our pregnancy. Whether it was planned or not, it is none of your business. Sorry to break it to you and hopefully save you from asking another expecting couple.

However, this is not the reason for the post. The reason for this post is because I have decided and thoroughly read and educated myself to know I am choosing to go natural with my birth. This is another one of the pregnancy shenanigans I feel like is not yours nor anybody's business on why I would choose such a thing. Though, because of the many reactions I get from people, I am choosing to explain a portion of my reasoning.

If you choose not to read any further, that is fine. I know this post is getting a bit long.

Majority of the people I have told that I am going natural respond shocked I would consider such a thing. They than go off about epidurals and how they are either going to get one because of all the horror stories they have heard about the pain or how they absolutely loved their epidural and there can be no other way than such a blissful, easy birth. Let me be frank with y'all, your explanation is not going to frighten me of birth nor make me decided my decision is wrong. I have made up my mind, and those who know that once I make up my mind. . . I ain't changing it.

The reason for my decision is but a simple explanation. Birth is not suppose to be easy. If it was, Heavenly Father would have made it a simple task. Birth, however, is suppose to be beautiful. The most beautiful part of it is bringing one of Heavenly Father's greatest gifts into this world. I am not 100% for epidural nor am I 100% for natural. I feel like that is something you need to decide. I decided natural because that is what feels right to me for myself and my body. I know my body and what I can handle more than anybody else. I also, know Heavenly Father would not give me a task  he did not think I could handle. If you choose to do an epidural, good for you. I am happy for you because you decided what was best for you and your body in bringing a child into this world. However, please do not put me down and make me feel like my decision to go natural is wrong and terrifying.

Another reason for my decision is because this is my first birth. This whole experience and process is new for me, and I want to get to know myself even better. I want to learn in my 6 week birthing class the techniques of breathing and relaxation methods to help me cope with the pain. I want to learn more about my body and what it truly can do. If after this birth, I feel like I can't do it again with another, than I will maybe consider pain medications for my next birth, but for now, I want to experience what Heavenly Father has designed my body to do to its full capacity. I won't judge you for your decision, so please do not judge me. I did not make my decision on what I was going to do until I was 23 weeks pregnant. Thanks to the wonderful book my brother and sister-in-law gave us and the guidance from Heavenly Father. . . I was able to make a decision I felt was right for me and my baby.

My last reason for my decision to go natural is because I did not want to go my entire pregnancy saying I was going to get an epidural no matter what and than not learn anything about coping with my own pain, etc. Lots of things can happen when it comes to birth. You can either not make it in time for them to start an epidural or sometimes they start the epidural too early and by the time the baby is ready to come, the epidural has worn off or is not effective. I want to go into this birth knowing I can do this and be prepared for this child to come into the world. I want the mind set of doing this natural, so I can mentally and physically prepare myself for this experience.

I hope these reasons are good enough for you to understand I am not for one way or the other, but I am for making a decision you feel is best for you and your body. I won't judge or criticize your decision; please do not judge or criticize mine.

Thanks for reading if you got this far. I just want support rather than judgment. . . just like you probably do too.

I am not a religious picture taker of my somewhat growing bump, but here is one I have taken. Only three and half more months to go!